I'm Back!!!

Well I know I vanished for a full year. But I am back now…what happened to me? Well I was going to spew a long story of BS and then say I was just kidding..but meh…how about the truth instead? After my last post I had a pretty decent night and got my bankroll up to over $300. I had never cashed out before and I had been spending a lot of time sitting on the computer instead of being with my wife so I cashed out $200 so I could at least show her I was winning and could actually get my money back. I used it to get a nice hotel suite for a night out of town and had a little “getaway weekend” with just the two of us. It was worth it and I am glad I did it. That still left me with $100 and enough to play the $5.20 DON’s which was where I was comfortable at anyways. I figured I would just grind it back up again. I knew I was blowing my “time table” for my goals, but I didn’t care at that point. Well when I started playing again I had a wonderful little run of 0 for 5 on my $5.20 DON’s!!! whew!!! Bam!! In about 90 minutes I was already at my threshold for dropping back down to the $1.10 DON’s. Well after a month of playing $5.20 or larger buy-ins I didn’t want to go back to the $1.10’s so I made a typical “loser’s” executive decision. I signed up for a $52.00 DON instead and figured I would double up or be toast. Well I was burned and ended up toast. Then I burned off the last of it on a cash game. Poof….$100 gone really quick. Needless to say I was pretty upset that I tilted so bad. I know $100 is nothing…I have a decent paying job and support a family so it’s not the money…it’s the lack of control that bothers me. I DON’T like to lose when I am the favorite!!! It freaking drives me nuts when I am a 70% or higher and am all in against someone and lose. I know it happens and it happens a lot with all the hands we see online, but it doesn’t make it any easier. That is the one reason I won’t deposit any real amount of money to play poker. If I put $1000 in there and then went on tilt I would be sick about what else I could have used it for instead. Losing my winnings doesn’t hurt as bad!! LOL… So I took some time off..I was too wrapped up in playing anyways..I was playing too much and watching the numbers too closely to stay on track with my “goals”. I didn’t sign on for like 3 months..not one hand of poker. Then after that I played a few freerolls from time to time. I actually won a few tickets for the weekend finals, but weekend days are for my family and I rarely have time to play then so I still have them. It’s a new year so I made a new deposit..my usual whopping $25!!! LOL.. Same plan as before basically..starting with $1.10 DON’s and less than $1.00 MTT’s and will grind those until I hit $75 and then I will start to move up in both. I played a few already and it didn’t start well. I went like 0-7 right out of the gun..and only on one of those losses was I behind when all the chips went in..sheesh!! what a welcome back that was!! Oh well..it happens.. but then I kept at it the next day and I am back to even again.
Until next time…

Current BR $25